The reason I write

This is a more personal blog all are true feelings...today i received a letter from my brother who is currently locked up in prison and as always I was excited to see what he was going to say. I couldn't wait so I had my husband open it and read to me over the phone. My heart begins to hurt as I type this. He begins his letter discussing my mother and I relationship that we have with each other. To give you a short version...parents, drugs, divorce, rehab, grandparents, "new" family, depression/mental abuse, adult! That's how my mother and my relationship was during years I lived in her house. Oh and on top of that I played a major role in my brother and sister's lives. He proceeds to tell me that I am ungrateful for what she has done for me, she did nothing to me, I am a nasty person who is not living in reality right now, and that I am taking care of other people. I am still in disbelief knowing that this was coming from the little boy I love so dearly. I remember when he was born and I cried when I had to leave the hospital the next day and go to school. I never thought anything would tear us apart I felt as though we were inseparable, but was unaware that a son's attachment to his mother means so much more than that. I always wanted to have that same type of relationship with my mom as well. I never understood why she always treated me like another female who was not really apart of her family, but she just had to deal with me because unfortunately I was her daughter. I always felt controlled felt as if though I didn't belong and then to realize now as an adult ...I was used. I never was appreciated for putting my life on hold and now that I am making huge accomplishments I must be stopped. Unfortunately for them I have been working on my emotions for years now an I can truly say this time you didn't hurt me. I win because my life will go on with or without you and hopefully as a family you learn to get pass things...hopefully. Anyways I can vent all day but I will come to a conclusion and say this to "you" as I have said before, and will always say..."we don't do nonsense round herre".